guileturncoat | Round 4 PC post with Dazai

Dazai's quarters can be found in the studio building. It's one of the doors off of the main hallway, not far from the stage itself. The door itself is labeled with his name. Most of the time it is unlocked, but he does lock it at night or when he's with someone else.

There is an open parlor area, with a couple couches and a low table. Off to one side of the room is a taller table with some booze bottles on it, all still mostly-full. On another wall is a door, which presumably goes to another part of his quarters, maybe his bedroom? And there is also a table and desk chair to one side, which appears to be a working space. All of the walls are lined with bookshelves, which are full of countless books.

Feel free to knock, or walk right in if the door is open.

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From:

prayerwheel

[ Well, this is how you flirt in medieval fantasyland. She's just missing the vine-covered balcony.

Are you picking up what she's laying down, Doezai?? She chose the most highschool-anime-love song ever for this (see hovertext). ]

Toorisugita kaze no kaori wasurenai
Ima wa atatakai monogatari

[ Oh good, now she's close enough to reach for his face. If he lets her, she'll grasp it delicately and sing the last line while closing the space between them ]

Zenbu nigirishimete iru kara

From:

guileturncoat

[Oh, he sure is. He doesn't really speak it much, but he's fluent in Japanese, so the meaning of the song isn't lost on him.

And now his face is caught and she's bound to feel his pulse thrumming under his skin, and oh god what does he even do what does he even do

The answer ends up being reaching up with his hands and covering his face (or, well, his eyes mostly) and screaming softly while a furious blush takes over his skin.]

aaaaaAAAAAAAA

From:

prayerwheel

[ Oh my god you adorable garbageman you. Azura flinches a little at the scream, but just laughs at the flustered reaction. ]

Don't hide. Let me see your face.

From:

guileturncoat

Noooooooo! Denied! It's a stupid face and not worth seeing right now!

From:

prayerwheel

I think it's a very cute face. You hide it too much already.

[ although that comment does make her briefly wonder what his real face looks like. would she still think he's cute?

...probably yeah, just from how he's reacting to this. ]

From:

guileturncoat

[Not that she will ever see it because he is HIDING IT

He's manages to twist his head bandages around to cover more of his face somehow.]

From:

prayerwheel

It's strange to see how your reaction has completely reversed. Weren't you the one who said you found me attractive?

[ still not moving!! having this conversation standing so close to him is surely helping, right

god she is just. pulling out every line from every romance novel she's ever read, she's talking completely out of her ass right now ]

Please move your hands, Mr. Dazai. I'd like to finish what I came here to do.

From:

guileturncoat

[Well okay, he can move his hands. Because his face is covered in bandages now.

...ish. They're loose and starting to drape off, so he can peek out from between them. But he looks like a little mummy slowly coming undone.]

From:

prayerwheel

[ Azura pauses for a moment because this absolute dork. She clicks her tongue and moves to part them a little so she can see...at least one eye of his, I guess.

....shit, is she really gonna do this? There's a flash of hesitation on her face. Well. It wasn't gonna her first kiss, even if that one with Atsushi last week was awkward. She'd probably be judging herself infinitely more if it was. But again, she's already here. If she left now she might not work up the nerve to do this again...or worse, maybe she'd hurt his feelings.

She leans in to give him a gentle kiss, fingers curling into his hair. ]

From:

guileturncoat

[No feelings are being hurt here, nope! Especially not as those lips meet his, and he absolutely melts into the touch. As much as he tries to be the flirty guy, he really is weak to attention like this, and he finds himself getting caught up in whatever attention and affection Azura has to give him.

His eyes are closed by the end of it, and his hands grip the desk behind him firmly. He's nervous here, but not unwilling.]

From:

prayerwheel

[ She keeps it short, because she'd rather not mess it up now of all times. Azura pulls away--though only for a moment, because looking at him blushing makes her want to kiss him again, so she does.

Again. And again. And again. And another time, for good measure.

She'd keep going, but she doesn't want to push him. Rather, she settles her forehead against his, breathing choppy, waiting for him to reply in some manner. ]

From:

guileturncoat

[Each kiss melts him further and further, until by the time he feels her forehead against him his limbs are practically jelly. It's a good thing he's balanced on the edge of his desk, because he probably would have fallen over otherwise.

In fact, he does just that eventually. After a few seconds of quick breaths that are way too close to their respective faces. Dazai suddenly flops backwards onto his desk. Not unlike someone who has just fainted. Except his eyes are open so he's still awake, just staring at the ceiling as he tries to calm his racing heart.]

That's so unfair, you know that? Azura-chan is too cute to be doing that to someone.

From:

prayerwheel

[ aaaaaAAAAAAAAA she can't believe she just did that

Azura takes a step back and....gods, no, she can't look at him right this second, so she stares at the bookshelves while she fiddles with her pendant, face completely red. ]

Does that mean you didn't enjoy it?

[ don't lie, doezai ]

From:

guileturncoat

That's not the problem! I liked it a lot!

[The way he's covering his face again and flailing his body a bit like a fish is probably indicative of the fact that yes, he's telling the truth.]

From:

prayerwheel

[ gonna. put a hand on the desk and lean over him. ]

Then what's the issue, precisely? I seem to remember you having a strong amount of bravado when we first met...yet, now it's gone when one girl kisses you.

[ azura

that was less a kiss and more a makeout ]

From:

guileturncoat

You mean when one girl makes out with me!

[Yep. Calling it as he sees it.]

From:

prayerwheel

[ ..................

hm. she did, didn't she? She wasn't even thinking about it during. Just...that it felt nice and he seemed to like it, so she kept going.

Azura stands back up and sits on the desk next to him. ]

...are you opposed to me doing so again?

[ aZURA

wow having a drink before she came over here was the best decision she ever made??? she only feels 50% mortification asking that rather than 100% ]

Edited Date: 2019-07-08 12:45 am (UTC)

From:

guileturncoat

Not...specifically, no. But I think it might be a bad idea.

[This is a talk he has been trying to avoid by delaying it with literally everyone until he dies. Or until he can escape California. But death is more likely.]

From:

prayerwheel

[ frowning ]

...why?

[ besides the whole "is the murdergame host" thing ]

From:

guileturncoat

Because I'm pretty sure you're drunk, Azura-chan. And if we're going to kiss, I want it to be all you, not any drinks.

[Wow he went from 'nervous' to 'soft' pretty quick there.]

From:

prayerwheel

[ ........ ]

Having a single glass of wine is not "drunk." I'm a bit more relaxed, if anything. Besides, I--

[ she grimaces, like he just slapped her hand away ]

...I can't match up to some of the other people who have their eye on you. I wanted...to say something, because if next Saturday comes and I die, I'll...

I'll...have regretted it if I didn't approach you in some way.

[ a pause, and she moves to take his hand in between hers, lacing her fingers with his ]

Despite everything, I feel a great deal of sincerity from you. You're far sweeter than you let on. I'm not sure how I fell so quickly, but I suppose part of it is having someone to fret over.

So, I....don't know this will end, or even how I want it to end, but as long as I'm here, I want...to keep spending time with you.

[ turning to him ]

It's not because I had a drink, is it? What's your real reasoning?

From:

guileturncoat

...

[He sat up as soon as she moved away, but he hasn't gotten off his desk yet. It's almost comical, how his legs dangle and don't quite reach the floor. It makes him look younger than he is. ...it makes him look as young and inexperienced as he feels right now.]

A lot of people are going to die. Myself included, likely. And I don't want to be so selfish as to leave someone missing me if I do die.

Plus, all of the flirting, the suave talk? That's not me. I'm a loser-nerd who's never had a girlfriend before. I'm not charming or anything, that's just the acting.

From:

prayerwheel

[ Oh.

Oh.

Well.

There's a bunch of questions she wants to ask now, like how are you sure a lot of people are going to die? because it's almost the third week and they've been doing pretty okay with not killing each other. Or why are you going to die?

But then he echoes exactly what she's been thinking, what she told Inaba about, that there was no point to finding someone she liked and wanted to spend her time with because she was dying regardless, because she didn't want anyone to miss her.

She really wishes she knew his real name, because saying "Dazai" right now won't have the effect she wants. But she doesn't, so she just squeezes his hand instead. ]

You...

From:

prayerwheel

Listen to me, please.

That's the same thing I've been telling myself for years. That I shouldn't bother, because I'm not going to see my 30s anyway. Or...not even that, anymore. If I continue on the way I have been, I won't see the end of this year. And who am I to make someone I love miss me that much?

[ she takes a shaky breath ]

I'm terrified. I hadn't planned out the rest of my life. Even if you're not here to help me...who's to say there isn't someone else out there in the world who will be? I can't look forward and think "I'm certainly, absolutely going to die young" anymore. The chances are slim, I know, thanks to being here...but it's not a definitive.

So, I know what you're thinking when it comes to mortality. I received some good advice on Friday, though. "It's fine to think of just wanting to live, or having feelings, no matter how long or short it might be. Because in the end, that's what matters."

[ another pause ]

I guessed as much. But I mean what I said. Despite what some of the others might think...I believe you're a kind person, and that's what's drawing me to you. There's something in you that isn't lying when you speak to me, even if there are things you can't say.

From:

guileturncoat

...kind, huh...

[He is thinking on the words Azura just said, but his tone implies that he is inclined to disagree. Because when he looks back on everything that he's done, he's been anything but kind. Maybe it's because he's hard on himself, but all he can see is the hurt he's caused people.

So finally, he shakes his head.]

You're wrong there. I'm not kind. I'm a cowards who feels lost and confused and is just trying to make sense of everything. And even though there's a clear, right path here, I'm going to mess it up and hurt everyone. Because that's what I do. I fumble with my words or forget to say something important and then someone's feelings get hurt.

You know you're not the only person who likes me, Azura. What am I supposed to do with something like that?

[And that's the real problem: he doesn't dislike anyone here, really. So when several people are trying to kiss him, he doesn't know what to do about that. No matter what he does, it just looks like people are going to get hurt.]